Well, here we are knee deep in August and 2020 is almost three months from completion, and that means it is time for me to begin to focus on the fourth quarter of the year and really think about what are my plans moving into 2021.

A couple of things that I want to chat about that I hadn't publicly addressed, but now that I feel it is in the past, I am ready to do just that.

I've never really battled depression; my first main bout was my wife's passing in 2015. But it seemed that was the beginning, throughout the past almost five years I have encountered it many times but was able to pull myself out of it by saying, "I'm just lonely, get over it."

Normally it did the trick and I would move on forgetting about whatever was depressing me. I say, "normally," because in June my little trick did not work. I was so depressed that I became bedridden. I stopped answering calls, texts, messages and even, emails. All I could think about was, "I am useless. I am a loser. Why bother no one cares anyway."

I lay there for two weeks; it was the fifteenth that I (for reasons I truly cannot explain) took a selfie and posted it on my social media outlets. Everyone left messages Hope all is well or like Take care, and I lied and said I was fine. But there were a few that refused to take my answer as gospel and continued to private message or even, call every day.

Almost two weeks after that picture something happened, I woke up and I was okay. I sat and pondered things and once again went to Social Media and wrote:

Today, I feel like myself for the first time in a very long while. I asked God, why did I at first lose my job, then lost my house and finally my wife.

For five years, I have asked that question and for the first time in that time I feel like found my answer.

I am a teacher, not only to my children but anyone who wants to listen and learn what I have. While I have no doubt, some will roll their eyes at this, and those are the ones who do not really know me as a person. But those who do, understand I have lived a fairly adventurous life in a mere 43 years, and I am more than willing to share the knowledge that I’ve learned.

And, in order to have knowledge that I can share, I have to grow—and nothing can grow from the highs but begins in the deep rock bottom where there is nothing that can be done but to grow. That is why I went through all of this, so I can continue to learn and grow, so I can continue to be me.

My journey from the darkness was over. I exited the void and while I said that I felt like myself, I did and still do feel a bit different. I want to thank the ones who refused to believe I was all right. Thank you sincerely, you showed me that I was more than just a guy that publishes your stuff!

But, for Russo who called every day, Steph for messaging or emailing to remind me that I am not alone, Jenna who sent in ways she thought would battle depression and to Jeff and Krista who while they were on their road-trip physically stopped in to check in on me. You are my family and love you guys more than life itself.

From the depths of my soul, I offer to you all the most sincere and heartfelt thank you, that I can offer. Sincerely and, truly.

Thank you all for coming in this month, come back next time and I will lay so exciting things at you that we are gearing up to for the final few months of 2020 and what next year holds like JayZoMon's Pop Culture Expo 2021!

With respect to you all!

David K. Montoya
Founder of The World of Myth Magazine
And Other Stuff Too.